Time

Evidentially I'm not good enough to hear from you again. I lost my train of though whenever I saw your face online. I've missed you, but that wasen't or isn't I should say, good enough, is it? I rather be with you, instead of beign alone. Feeling angry. Dealing with pain everyday. Holding back tears. Trying to be strong, hold my ground. This black and solid concrete thats cracking. The foundation I tried to build was abomished, deteriarated. Nothing left to create. She took it because you gave it to her. Let her have it when I worked harder. Nothing but a minor mishap in my way. Happiness is all I ever wanted. Time away from you isn't. Time to forget you. Time to move on. Time to rebuild. Time to love again. Time to rejuvinate. Time to surface from this black water of misery. You asked for time, I gave it to you.... What else did you want?

Blue Hour

We only have a little time, let's not waste it. I really want to cherish every moment we spend. Together we should remain. It feels right, the way we are, our interaction brings a special feeling. Intensity to the ultimate level. Burning inside with passion that only you can create. Touching your smooth caramel skin lightly and gently. Hesitating a little because I never experienced such electricy on my fingertips. My mouth waters, tingling, wanting to taste you. Then I do, naturally.... time passes by.... and it's over.... I'm down.... mad because blue hour is done, and it wasen't as innocent as I though....

Sun and Moon

Going in opposite directions. Youre too hot for me to handle, and i'm too cold for you too bare. Always running away from each other. Two extremes that can never be together. Only meeting momentarily at twilight. Our time of the day. In this story, I the moon, chase you, the sun. Which I shouldn't be doing. It should be you doing the pursuing. I have the inner beauty, the marvelous essence, and the power of raw emotion. You have the never ending heat, the impecable strength, the power of creativity. Both grand, both attention grabbing in different ways. I, laid back, serene. You, stand-offish, bold. I will always love you, and I will always chase you. That's just the way it is.... It's meant to be.... as the story goes....

Valentine

Last valentine's day. I left you a message. You returned the call too late. You were too bitter for my taste. Your mood was not something I wanted to feel. I couldn't deal with your indifference. Especially not on a day like that . The day of love and friendship. I recieved neither. What a waste. Throw it in the garbage. It was toxic. I dread the definiton of that day. Cupid is not a friend of mine. Constantly making me unhappy. Never again, stop the nonsense. Because my senses are blind. My valentine died. Now this day is empty. Just like my heart. Oh, valentine, thou shall not fogive. Thou shall forget....

Forbidden Memories

I miss the sound of your voice. All the times you spoke to me on the phone. But alone I always felt. Even when you paid attention. It was never enough. That's why I wanted more. Always Feining the taste of your lips on mine. Wishing that our hands were entertwined all the time. Nothing but fantasies, a couple of kisses on that day in N.Y. Not even worth calling them that. I know for a fact that I am still in love with you. But everyday its getting a little bit easier. Your memory is becoming distant like the sun. But just like it, your fire is strong enough to warm me, and I notice that your still in my life somehow. Becoming something that will always be here. I'm not going to let the love I have for you destroy what I am trying to build. I will rise above like a phoenix I proclaim myself. Memories of you shall be forbidden.

Release

Literally I lived my life for you. Now I gotta live this life for me. Time to let go, time to release. The pain you caused. Changed me and I lost. Everything I tried to gain for loving you. All the things I wished upon, I never got. Had me in a daze, I was so love-crazed. No I gotta let go, time to release. Never let you come back, trying to be with me. Can I be happy without you? I just have to, even though my heart doesn't want to. Let me live, let me breath. Memories please, erase finally. Pain turn into empowerment. Bitterness turn into happiness. Let.... let me be.... alone.... because I don't wanna hold on.... forever.... No more.

Breath

I'm trying to exhale the pain. Inhale control. Power to get over this. Clarity in my mind, healing in my soul. I'm not far from forgeting. I'm real far from letting go. How can that be? Forgeting what you did to me. Letting you go. Easier said then done. The battle's just begun. An ultimate struggle. I never knew how much I could love you. Fallen head over heels. Suffocating from the smoke of the fire.

Exhaustion

I'm sick of my dreams beign revolved around you. I can't stand you invading my privacy. Your memory linked to my intimicay. You lost your position the day you comitted the crime. Lies and deciet don't make what was you and I. Right, but it was always wrong. What I felt should of been strong enough to hold you down. All of me wasen't enough. You turned to someone else. I can't understand my feelings towards you. Confusion lingers in my mind. Time and emotions wasted, I never thought i'll be tested. But I was, a trial under fire. Never took anything higher, destroyed everything I wanted. You, that was always it, always the problem. Leading to my eternal exhaustion.