Electric Current

Hearing you voice again. It's been 9 months. You light up starts in my interior. Sending sparks to my heart. You cause my soul to become heavy. Causing a fire, everything inside me wants to burst out. The pain is sweet. But when you lift me up in those rare moments. I fall into abyss when you become busy. Entangled with someone or something, other that one who still has infinite love for you. Me, the one who still wants to be with you despite the time, lies, misunderstandings and distance. None of that made my pride or ego stronger. I still love you, it's not as strong as it was. But I proved to myself it's still ther. All you have to do is play your part. Electrify me. My currents are waiting. My patience is running.

Drip...Drop...

I hear the rain outside my window, the weather turns into my mood. I'm mostly misunderstood, looked up on as either weak or too strong for my own good. I don't have time to express myself to others who I don't know. I usually let them think what they want. Who else can I be? The real me? Never shown to strangers, that just the way it is. I have to be protected, that's just how I feel. Drip... drop... still waters run deep. Who else will know that? Other than me? Now I try to let go of all that misery. The one caused by the lover who remains untrue to me. Decieved by his looks and the memories. Stuck up in my head they don't belong there like my brain cells. Tryin to live somewhere I consider hell, but knowing deep inside that there will always be worser times than this. This is nothing compared to what might be in my future. Hopefully it will be all good, but who am I to chose it? Drip... Drop... still waters run deep. An uncanny definition of the dreamer yet realist L.A.C.

L.L.:Decieving

Decieving, you are the reason that, I don't believe in finding the love that I need. Drizzy Drake said this, I belive in it aswell. The emotions you keep in, and the secrets you won't tell. I might as well let you be. All you do is hurt me. I do nothing but frustrate you. One day i'll say I hate u. Instead of loving u like ur da only person on earth. I was never the type of person that u even deserved. My aura is more divine then yours. My honesty is cherished. My silence may be golden, but ur pressence isn't welcoming. Instead of ignoring me when I call you, txt you, or send u a myspace msg. Tell me wat's really good, that will make u more real and true. Instead of the arrogant and sneaky cat I say u are. I rather be alone then with you, stop decieving me like u have by far...

New Armor

I have New Armor. I wont let nobody break me apart. These eyes have seen more hardships. Felt more pain in my heart. War in love. Hell in soul. Battles with more fire then a burning inferno. Powerful emotions that move you like tides of an ocean. Im good. Protected by my new shiny armor. My heart, has created a steel spine.

Untrue

Everytime I try to be there for you, you shut the door to your heart in my face. The all I give is mediocer to you. Thats how you make me feel. Got to be crazy in love to be going through this again. But im not the one to put up pretences. Especially not with you. Even when you remain untrue.

Wakeup Call???

You're not a political person, Luis . You probably don't have much patience for game playing and forming alliances in order to get ahead. You like to focus on your responsibilities, be a good, honest citizen, and go home at the end of the day. But you might find it would be to your advantage to be just a bit more charming and crafty. You could be passing up golden opportunities by adopting a too passive outlook. It might be to your advantage to present a stronger image to your entourage.

This has been one of the most accurate horoscopes I've had to date. Today I have a job fair at my school. I was planning to go but, I did not have dress up shoes. So I wasent going to do it looking all jacked up and what not, LOL. Honestly I'm also not a "networking" type of person. I don't like to small talk or mingle with people who I don't know. It makes me uncomfortable especially if I am by myself. I guess now more then ever; I can say that I truly am shy. But I just can't seem to get to my comfort zone around complete strangers. If I stay silent I can do it, but if I have to speak and prove myself. It ain't gonna happen. That's just the way I am. But I guess I do have to learn how to be political, and speak my mind to people I don't know. It's going to take a while, but sonner or later i'm going to have to do it. If I want to suceed in life. But at the same time, I feel like people do underestimate me ALOT! Because of the way I look or act. I rarely smile to people I don't know, my face is usually composed. People might say I have a dry personality. I'm very misunderstood. Only those who are close to me know the REAL, me. Sometimes I feel like they don't even know the real me. I and God only know the real me. I am definately like a volcano inside a lake or mass of water. Still waters run deep, something is seething under surface. Don't judge a book by it's cover. That all describes me. One day, my ice walls will break down, everybody will meet ME! Luis Andres Cecilio.

Sentimental Mentality

It's been hard for me, to let you be with someone else. To live my life and just forget. To let you go i've been repressing. Holding on to old feelings. Captivated by the memories. Still deep in my conscious. I tried my best to let it go. Not tryna let the fire burn me. Destroy everything that's in my soul. When did I lose my self control? Put back the wall of pride, in front of my heart. Act like I don't care, put a up a big front. Let me be cold, release all the hurt. You've lost all my trust. Now I'm back at one. Feeling alone, like never before. Nevertheless I'm a survivor, from this I will grow.But will I ever move on? My mentality has always been sentimental. I will change when I can. Otherwise let me be the person that I am.